Its been a while... what else is new.
Time flys when you're heads down and you're working hard and chasing goals. Since my last blog I've been to Punta Cana, Domincan with some close friends, recovered lots, and studied hard too (grosss). Calculus has become my 2nd life. It has taken over it seems, but the end is near! I am finally going to be DONE high school this Friday when I finish my exam. I can't believe I'll be done and won't have to think about school. It will be such a weight of my shoulders to know all I have to do is get fit.... and get fitter.
I don't want to say it too soon but my knee is feeling stronger then ever. It's funny, I hadn't really stopped to notice that I didn't have any pain anymore until this week. I guess its because my trainer has been making each week slightly harder then the last. Without even knowing it, I am starting to clean some serious weight. I felt it today in my traps and back muscles which means I'm heading in the right direction. Life this summer has been very different from last. Even though I would love to be out in Calgary training with the team, I have come to realize that it is better for me to stay and recover fully on my own. I am a super competitive person and when you're injured it sometimes isn't a good idea to be pushing yourself to the limit.
On the long flight home from Austria after my injury, I wrote a page of the things I wanted to accomplish in the next 8 months. 6 months have already past and I just looked back at my goals today. I have accomplished a lot of them but I still have a few to go for the summer. One of my goals was to become more of a professional athelete. When I look in the mirror now, I see someone who could go all the way. I see someone who can over come fear of failure, and over come the mental side of the sport. I sometimes feel like my biggest enemy is between my own two ears and I've really been working on improving this about myself. Another thing to check off on my list was to listen to better music and read more. Two of which I think I've been doing more of. For my 19th birthday my brother and some friends took me to see The Band of Skulls (which sounds hard core rock) but really isn't. It was a really sweet experience that I will remember forever.
Lastly, one of the biggest things on my list of achievements was to believe in what I'm doing and not worry about what the rest of the world is doing. With my injury, I'm doing everything I can without trying to over do it. Confidence in the process is what makes me know that I will perform when I do get time to ski. Standing in the start and knowing I've done every second of my recovery and pushed myself in training everyday is beautiful thing. To know that I don't have to do something extra in the race from what I've been doing is training is such a kick ass feeling. When I get there, I will deserve it and I will know that I can do anything.
I'm sooooo coming back stronger and better then ever before and it feels good to know that even though its been along time since I've skied, it really doesn't feel like it. Its cool to know that I can improve my skiing without even doing it. As my surgeon says... "you won't forget how to ski." Thats all the wisdom I have for now. Here some pics from my tropical vacay to Punta Cana!
The Beach!
Kelly, Dev and I
My new best friend...
Jules.
1 800 KILL'N'IT!!
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